I always say that had my mother allowed me to dye my hair back in high school, I’d be over this phase of my life already.

At the beginning of summer, I was nostalgic for my pink tipped mermaid hair that I used to have for the summer a few years ago. I haven’t done it in a while because it’s very damaging to my hair every time I do it, and it’s a long process. On top of work related appropriateness. The last time I did it, I wore my hair in a bun all summer at work til it faded to an appropriate hint of color that I could wear down.

This time, I was bold. I made an appointment with my stylist to get the pink put back in my hair the minute hair services were allowed again. I wore my hair hidden in a bun for a week and then a week later, I let it all down, shocking the old hens at work, while my supervisors didn’t blink an eye because well, nothing about me really surprises them much anymore. The hospital policy has also been revised as of late, with a vague interpretation of what hair colors are “appropriate,” so my supervisors justified that it was fine so I was off scot-free from my reckless hair decisions. The funny thing is, after longing for my pink hair for so long, truth be told, the novelty only lasted a few weeks. Don’t get me wrong, I absolutely LOVE my pink hair. But this process took a good 6 hours in the chair. We did the pink along with my regular root touch-up. I’m starting to grow weary of getting my hair done and honestly, I want a break. I can feel my hair being less full as well because of all the damage and breakage of bleach and the process of teasing my hair to put the pink ombre in. The other day I was left alone to my thoughts and I honestly thought to myself, it is time. I’m ready to let go. I’m no longer sad about it, bargaining or trying to find alternatives around it. I’m finally ready to go back to dark hair. To grow it back out, let it be healthy and full again.

I’m also seriously considering microblading to further cut down on time in the morning getting ready. Some days, my brows don’t want to cooperate and wouldn’t it be easier if I just woke up with them perfect and ready to go. I could never get them done with the blonde hair because of how dark and weird they would look when you first get them done before they fully heal. But with the dark hair, it is much easier to transition and let heal. I also thought about lash extensions to further easy up getting ready in the morning. I want to just wake up, get up and go on my regular days. It’s weird because I still actually enjoy sitting and taking my time to curate a makeup look and face for a shoot day or hanging out with friends. That’s not the problem. I’ll still want to do that. But on regular days where I’m just running to the gym and then running to work, I really have no patience despite it only really taking me all of 10-15 minutes to put on my face properly. But I’m so lazy about those days. I want an easier ready to go look on those days now. I don’t even wear foundation to work anymore because of the pandemic mask wearing. But I’ve gotten pretty good with skincare because of it. I moisturize, moisturize, moisturize day and night. All I do is quick eye makeup for work. So if I microblade and lash extend, I can pretty much just run out the door. I also wouldn't have to worry much about my makeup melting during the half marathon if I'm just doing brows and lashes for a simple easy look. I wonder if I want side bangs again too. I miss the flip and curl of a cutesy side bang. Decisions, decisions. It all started with a hair color change.😅

LOL, I know, it sounds like I’m coming out of this decade of blonde, and stepping into a whole different person and look. Maybe that’s what I need as I step into this new chapter of my life. I know, I’m so dramatic, hahaha. It’s just hair, but it’s always been a big part of my identity. It’s going to be interesting to see if I still have the same impact when I return to my roots.

But for once, I’m actually excited to see how I look when this happens. I’ve realized that I’m really done with the blonde, having gotten all I’ve wanted out of it with cosplay, shoots and looks. With a dark makeover, I’m ready to work on a whole new portfolio. I feel like Top Model when Tyra puts the girls through makeovers and they start to work their new looks. We’re starting fresh, new canvas and I am READY FOR IT. We’re going to WORK IT and turn out a whole new batch of fierceness I promise!

October will officially be the last blonding before I go on my birthday vacation and come November, we are stepping into the dark side. It’ll be a nice early Christmas gift to my husband as well as he’s always preferred dark hair over blondes but here I am, being a jerk for the past 10 years to spite him, lol.

Here’s to the last days of my Barbie locks.